Sadness

   So I've been feeling kind of sad lately. Not sad for myself, not sad that we didn't get what we expected, not sad that we're going to be facing challenges with raising Joey, not sad that raising a special needs child seems like a lot of extra work for us, not sad for us at all. All we asked for was a child to love and raise, and we got that. I've been feeling sad for Joey.
   Sad for him in a few different ways. I guess the lesser sad is just for the simple fact that he is going to have a rough time growing up. Difficulties learning must be something very frustrating for a child, and I'm sure that he will face teasing and such from other children. The bigger sad though is the thought that he might not experience everything that life has to offer. There is so much to life. Getting an education, going to college, living alone, finding yourself, finding your passions, getting a job, dating, finding a wife and getting married, having children, traveling, and so on, and so forth. There is just SO MUCH to life, and I worry that he won't get to experience everything that life has to offer. He came out of the womb and into the world, and he didn't even have fair shot from the start. I just hope and pray that the disabilities aren't too great, that the challenge isn't too large for him to get everything out of life that he wants to get. If he wants to be a mechanic, I'm fine with that, but if he wants to be a doctor and the challenges are too great, that would break my heart. I think that what a parent wants most is for their children to be happy, and I worry that he might not get enough from life to ever be happy.

Joey is sad too :-/